really fucked up

i really dun know what to do anymore.
no this, no that.
fuck la.
i got no life.

i really cannot live anymore.
stress can drive anyone nuts
in my case the stress is killing me.

now my mum confiscates my phone every night
thanks a lot sister...
its all bcoz of her
haish...

tomorrow i might need to see the band teacher alr.
i nvr come for so long alr,
i sure kena die..
with them its still okay
but with the conductor,
get ready for vulgarities.
i am a loser.
why cant i just stick to a hobby??

The cause of all of this is that i have NEVER achieved anything significant in life.
not even one thing i like.
playing guitar?gave up
clarinet?gave up
drawing?didnt want to
any national competitions?nope
passing maths?dream on
the list goes on and on.
i'm a fucked up loser just like *****
fuck

world peace my foot,
Faris

ARGH!